Being creative and doing art has always been an important part of my life and my identity. As a child, I experienced that meditative effect of creative work. Pens, paper, and colours always made me happy.
When I was eleven, I decided I wanted to be an artist when I grow up. My decision was supported by the people around me – my mother, my friends and teachers. But since I was very insecure, I also experienced failure, especially of not being good enough. I still remember when someone told me that I needed many skills and talents to call myself an artist. Fortunately, this was no hindrance to me.
Children create easily – they are only aware of the endless possibilities, rather than any limitations. They claim something they want to be, and do not question the how and when. It is set and there is nothing more to do. This is the most natural way of conscious creation. A child experiences its imagination as important as anything else – because it is.
Early on, I started to write my own stories with words and images. After high school, I still had no idea where to start, but I never lost that image of myself working as an illustrator. Nevertheless, there was still that haunting belief that my skills might not be enough. Some professionals told me that there were no businesses for my work and for my style. Now I know they were all me pushed out. They reflected back what I was starting to accept as true.
Before I knew about the Law, I claimed my wishes to the universe, similar to Neville’s teachings. During my training as a graphic designer, I had the desire to illustrate for a book publisher and I felt ready for it. Just a few weeks later, a friend told me about a small independent book publisher, and that they were looking for an illustrator for a poetry book. Soon I visited them and we fell in love with each other instantly. Since then, I am part of their work and family, and I love to contribute my artworks to them and their authors. This is only one example of how things came together in wonderful ways. Sometimes my actions reflected the effort and on other days I did nothing but relax, but always with passion for my art.
I trusted things would become true for me and wonderful projects crossed my path in the past years. I was able to create artworks for novels, poems and short stories. Regardless of what the professionals said, there was a place for my work and it found me.
One of the most beautiful experiences to me is to inspire other people. Since I want to share joy with my art, inspired creations by other artists is a continuation of this joy.
Last year this beautiful experience became an art piece itself. A musician saw my artwork and a live drawing session I held in front of a small audience, and had the beautiful idea to combine both forms of our expression. He wanted to improvise on a piano to my live paintings.
At this point I felt way too insecure for any improvised live performance and this idea was far from my comfort zone. But I was aware of the Law and Neville’s teachings, so I knew things will be resolved to make this happen anyway. I refused, but kept in the knowing, that nothing was lost. Any kind of obstacles and insecurities will be resolved.
Live your life in a sublime spirit of confidence and determination; disregard appearances, conditions, in fact, all evidence of your senses that deny the fulfilment of your desire. Rest in the assumption that you are already what you want to be, for, in that determined assumption, you and your Infinite Being are merged in creative unity, and with your Infinite Being (God) all things are possible. God never fails.
Neville Goddard – The Power of Awareness
The following months I learned new tools and techniques and I gained more confidence in my art – a never ending, but beautiful process. With Neville, I learned that no matter where I am, it is fine and always enough. With knowing who I really am, I can trust in my own skills and that place of discomfort slowly disappeared.
I met the musician again during an event and I told him about my progress and new possibilities. He was excited to finally combine our art. I started to paint to his piano music, and he played the music inspired by my colours and shapes. We united our art live for a very happy audience. The response was great and more sessions are yet to come! There will be new challenges, and I will be pulled out of my comfort zone again – not only for this project, but I am looking forward with relief and calmness.
I learned I only have to follow my passion and trust the unfolding. Things will come together perfectly, even when there seems to be no solution at first.
Opportunities do not get lost, they will not pass us by. Wherever we are, we are fine. There is no need to hurry.