Happy New Year loves!
Yes, I’m alive haha. I know I have not written an article in almost a year, or recorded a podcast in more than a year.
I have to say, being in the manifestation community has brought out a lot of narratives for me, many of them good, some of them not so good. Nevertheless, it pushed me to deepen my trust in these teachings. As I have written in numerous articles and posts, I strongly believe that the things we are faced with on a daily basis are the necessary contrasts needed to strengthen our trust and faith. For me, it has also pushed me to remain authentic, to not give in to what my ego temporarily fell for.
Living in a technological world, there are many distractions that we are surrounded with- from social media, to instant messaging and streaming services. Don’t get me wrong, I believe technology is one of the most amazing human advances, and without it, I wouldn’t have this amazing community. However, like with anything else in our 3D world, there will be polarity. This means that there is the opposite end of the spectrum.
I absolutely love that many of us are free to come online and post what we want to express when it comes to anything, but I specifically want to touch base on spirituality and manifestation. When we began the I AM Love website a few years ago, there were barely any coaches, youtubers, instagrammers, bloggers etc., teaching manifestation. At least for me I was not aware of them. There were a few, but definitely not as much as there are currently. It’s hard to regulate what is “correct” in spirituality, because there is no correct version of this. Of course, some teachings will be closer to what Neville Goddard teaches than others, but, nevertheless there is no spirituality and manifestation handbook or rule book.
I believe we should all live by our own moral principle of what we believe is right or wrong, as it creates social stability, but I also believe that the Truth spoken of in scripture and written by teachers like Neville Goddard, is one that is void of harm. To be honest, I thought this was common sense, that when implementing any new way of living life- whether it be these teachings or not- that we do so from Love. Love for ourselves and others. I should have known that by expressing the bareness of what is so completely far from what we have been conditioned to believe about life, it would open a can of discomfort. Not just for me, but for all of us. It wouldn’t be fair to speak about Love and joy without also speaking about how leaning into a new way of living life can uncover a lot of discomfort.
But, I also believe that is why it is important to not use these teaching as only a means to an end- to get something, but as a way to truly live life differently. It isn’t only about whether you are doing the correct thing to be in a specific state, but the integrity of how we want to live life. So, when you read something on the internet or listen to that next video or podcast, ask yourself, “Does this resonate with my heart? Do I want to wake up each day and live by this?”.
I don’t recommend to think of it only in terms of your desires, but in general, including the areas of life that are going relatively well. This is so that it no longer feels like you are putting that desire on a pedestal or seeing it as something more special than anything else that comes effortless for you. Because truthfully, it isn’t. Thinking that something is more special in some way is, in my opinion, an illusion. This does not mean some areas of life will not feel more difficult to experience shifts than others at first. This is normal and does not take away from the validity of your desires.
However, it does mean you dismantle the narrative that it will always be more difficult or special in some way. For example, I used to strongly believe that love and relationships were extremely difficult to experience. I used to look at other couples and think, “wow, how did they get so lucky?”.
This was because I grew up in an extremely toxic environment as a child and it remained for many, many years. It created a lot of trauma, and imagining myself out of it came with its own difficulties. I constantly saw myself as someone who would always struggle with love, who would always struggle to love herself. I had no definition of what Love truly is, and definitely not the kind of Love that Neville Goddard speaks of. The True Love that is formless and boundless. Love was always conditional, or at least it gave off that illusion.
My point is, I saw romantic relationships as more special than anything else in life. In fact, I wanted to be saved by another person, because I still carried the feelings of insecurity, instability and un-safety. My ego saw threats everywhere, so of course it felt the need to be saved. The more I longed, the further away it seemed to experience the relationship I desired. That’s because we can only ever experience what we are accepting and our sense of self, which causes us to unconsciously imagine certain things for ourselves. So, the more I saw the relationship as special, the more the 3D world showed me the absence of it, and the more I felt like I was someone longing, wishing and hoping.
I even remember crying in-front of the mirror and trying to force myself to love myself, but not for me, but because I thought that if I gave myself superficial self love, it would help me to experience the relationship I desired. Eventually, I realized what Neville Goddard meant when he said, “Those who go searching for love only make manifest their own love-less-ness, and the loveless never find love. Only the loving find love, and they never have to seek for it. You draw them; they come to you.“
It’s understandable that we confuse Love for 100% confidence, security and self love. But, this isn’t what self love is, it’s loving ourselves through all of the ebbs and flows of life, and it’s even being okay when we have days where we forget everything. This includes remaining authentic to what feels natural to you on your journey. I don’t believe in an absolute Truth, simply because absolute truth varies depending on the different stages of life, and levels of awareness, that we encounter. I know what my definition of the Truth is, but nevertheless it is still only my version of the Truth.
And I believe that our subconscious mind will show us the contents of our consciousness. It will show us our version of the Truth. Sometimes I think we strive too much to know what the ultimate Truth is, when in actuality it may just be to accept that there is no ultimate Truth, only our version of what that means. For me, I believe we are here to experience the unfolding of scripture, to awaken to who we truly are beyond the human identity. I wholeheartedly believe Neville Goddard’s teachings, and this is after learning and implementing many other philosophies.
Not only do we strive to figure out what the ultimate truth is, but we strive for perfect self love, perfect relationships, perfect healing of our traumas, perfect everything. So, we don’t work with the unease and follow our own authentic paths to liberation and freedom, but we follow what we think is the correct and most acceptable version of this, even if it comes at the cost of our mental health or what feels right in our heart. The paradox is that by searching for the perfect solution or teachings, we find ourselves continuously searching.
Do you find yourself confused by what the “correct” way is of implementing these teachings? Maybe you jump from one teaching, one philosophy to the next, and find yourself constantly abandoning what you began to practice and implement. Of course, there is nothing wrong with learning new information, gaining knowledge and recognizing something helpful. But, this isn’t for those that gain a spark of inspiration, but for those that consistently shame themselves and are always seeking, never trusting in who they are.
Our True Self is not a single being and entity, it is literally formless and boundless. Striving to have perfect self love, to heal all of our patterns, is no different than striving to be saved or striving for someone to love us. One sounds better on paper, but both keep us in a loop of striving, seeking and searching. Both of them keeps us in a cycle of still needing to be saved by something- whether it’s a person or more healing. I understand that it can feel difficult to follow your own authentic voice in a sea of voices that are always telling us different versions of what the right or correct thing is.
And I do believe there is a healthy way of going about the teachings and an unhealthy way. Don’t get me wrong, I do believe we need to see through the unhealthy beliefs we have accepted and let go of the ego stories that keep us feeling trapped.
Your authentic truth is your truth that sets you free, that cultivates trust and enough security. It is a truth that cannot be swayed by even the most beautiful words, because it feels like home. This is why I appreciate when Neville urged us to not take his word for anything, but to test what he was teaching. Many of you are not living by your own truths, so much so that you may not be consistently implementing and practicing a new way of being.
I have found that the only way to “save” ourselves, is to stop searching, seeking and striving. There is no measure for whether you have been healed enough and you don’t need to wait until something finally clicks.