I Got My Husband Back, Completely Stopped a Pending Divorce and I Am Experiencing a Marriage of Unparalleled Bliss Without Lifting a Finger!
Jesus looked at them and said,
“With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible”.Matthew 19:26 (NIV)
DAWN OF MY AWAKENING
English theologian and historian, Thomas Fuller, helped coin the phrase ‘the darkest hour is just before the dawn’. I, like many others within the I AM Love community, stumbled upon the teachings of Neville Goddard during an intense period of utter despair and sheer desperation. I’ll never forget that cool Spring afternoon in March of this year where I decided that I wanted OUT of this place of agonizing imprisonment and, if by some miracle, my marriage reconciled with the person who I’d considered my best friend and lover across many lifetimes – my husband.
Following a big argument that we’d had at the end of January (one of many tumultuous arguments had over the years) , I’d returned home from a weekend visit to see my family who lives out of town, to a half empty house. I’d manifested this beautiful home for our family just 5 months prior (unbeknownst of Neville’s teachings at the time) and within that 72 hour period of my absence, I came home to experience the fact that my husband had moved out, blocked all communication and, I learned on Valentine’s Day, that he had filed for divorce. I experienced a level of indescribable pain that left me feeling like one of the walking dead.
“Do not be embarrassed when I tell you that you are God. Instead, walk believing you are that important. You don’t have to become arrogant, but you must assume you are God. Think about it! Stop believing in God and start believing as God. Do this and the visions will come to confirm your assumption.”Neville Goddard
LAW OF ASSUMPTION
Born into a family with deeply rooted traditional Christian beliefs, coupled with my rebellious inquisitive nature birthed by my teenaged self, I was exposed to and possess some knowledge of just about every prominent theology known to man. Unceasingly dissatisfied with the paradoxical feeling of being loved by God, yet unworthy and separate from this Divinity due to my “sinful” human nature, I radically abandoned the confine of religious dogma. I immersed myself in esoteric teachings and disciplines including but not limited to metaphysics, reiki, transcendental meditation, A Course in Miracles and, within the past decade, teachings based on the Law of Attraction. For several weeks, I clung to these teachings to help soothe my grievously ravished soul and I begged God to touch my husband’s heart and to fully restore my marriage and family.
In a period of unrest, I stumbled upon the teachings of Neville Goddard via the lovely Nicole’s article here on the I AM Love website entitled, “The Illusion of Separation and Loss – How to Heal Your Broken Heart” and this changed everything. I devoured Neville’s teachings continuously over several months and slowly, I began to live and to embody the essence of my True Self. As I’d written in a previous article here on the I AM Love website, for the first time in my life, I felt like a true master of my destiny rather than a slave to my circumstance.
For the first time in my life, I began to see myself as victor rather than victim. As Shepherd, rather than sheep. For the first time in my life, I understood that I’d created all of my experiences up until that very moment and, here’s the best part, that I and I ALONE have the power to change ALL of it! I and I ALONE have the power to revise any and every unlovely circumstance simply by imagining a different scene and / or telling a different story. I and I ALONE have the power to create an entirely new version of any person within this physical realm. I and I ALONE have the power to create the life that I truly desire – no matter the past, no matter the circumstance. Why? Because I and I ALONE am the operant power of my Universe and I and I ALONE hold the entire Universe within ME – animating it all with my conscious awareness or, as Neville says, my “own beautiful imagination”.
“Think feelingly only of the state that you desire to realize. Feeling the reality of the state sought and living and acting on that conviction is the way of all seeming miracles”.Neville Goddard, Feeling is the Secret
I told myself that I AM the miracle that I seek and I began to live my life from a deep level of
“knowingness” that ALL things were always working in my favor. I reminded myself that I AM immune to any thoughts of limitation, lack, obstacles, issues, competition, fears and doubts because they are ALL illusions. I reminded myself that as the Goddess of my reality, I AM perfect love and “perfect love casteth out all fear” (1 John 4:18). Therefore, when those false beliefs arose within my waking consciousness, I sat lovingly with them and learned to surrender them to the Light and to the Love of my True Self. I learned to assert the supremacy of my imagination by boldly living my from the new assumptions of who I now had come to claim myself to be and I began to see miracles externalize in the mirror of my world of form. As I began to embody the essence of fulfillment, perfection and infinite gratitude in ALL things, I began to experience major reality shifts.
To name a few, I’ve manifested thousands of dollars from various sources, I’ve manifested opportunities for creative collaborative work, I’ve manifested numerous healings
and blessings for friends and family and, one that still leaves me awestruck, the complete
“disappearance” of dueling attorneys whose actions had previously left me terrified to face the day, much less open my email. Furthermore, I started to truly experience the sense of peace, safety and security within my own “Being-ness” as opposed to anything or anyone in the seemingly ‘outside’ world.
CIRCUMSTANCES DON’T MATTER
In the I AM Love podcast #3, “Dissolving Fears to Manifest Effortlessly”, Jennifer Ramdeo reminds listeners that time, as with fears and doubts, are illusions. I experienced the fact that as God, there is only the eternal NOW and that there is no such thing as time. Furthermore, as we continue to boldly assert the supremacy of our imagination over these illusions, we begin to live as that version of the person that we desire to be – thereby experiencing the fulfillment of all that we desire.
“I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me”.John 14:6 (NIV)
I read the above scripture often as it reminded me of the power of who I really am. My imagination is the ONLY reality and that which I give attention to by way of my mental conversations, imagery, feelings, thoughts and emotions IS the Way, it IS the Truth and I give it Life. Jennifer Ramdeo would remind me that there is NO lawyer in an office somewhere conspiring against me. That unlovely version of my husband was created by me and I have the power to manifest the version that I desire. There are NO others – there is ONLY ever me (my assumptions). I knew that once I’d made that initial declaration, I’d already entered into that reality where my desire existed in the eternal now. I simply continued to persist in the new story and lived from that new reality and soon, I begin to see my new self in the mirror of the external. I set the intention for things to manifest easily and effortless and that’s exactly what I experienced.
The communication from these lawyers, in this very active divorce case, came to a screeching halt. 8 weeks had gone by without a single word. Following that period, I had to make contact with my husband, as someone offered to purchase another home that we’d owned and I needed his signature on the paperwork. (IMPORTANT NOTE: I should mention here that this home wasn’t even for sale! I manifested the sale of this home in ‘as-is’ condition at the price that I desired). I’d lived so much in my new reality that I felt a little disoriented when I realized that he was actually behaving in the way that I felt that he would! I persisted in seeing the desired version of him rather than the old version that I’d perpetuated in the past. Within weeks, he confessed his unrelenting love for me and our family, begged for my forgiveness, stated that he did NOT want a divorce and asked if he could come back home. I’ve introduced him to the teachings of Neville Goddard and today, he too is learning to embrace the Truth of who he really is and together, we are experiencing a blissful union!
“Come now, let us settle the matter,” says the Lord. “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool”.Isaiah 1:18 (NIV)
In Neville’s 1963 lecture “You Can Forgive Sin”, the great mystic describes “sin” as missing the mark. Have you ever missed the mark on the same thing over and over again? I sure did and all of the misgivings, arguments and volatility evident over the course of my marriage has served as a prime example. The passage referenced above from the book of Isaiah as well as Neville’s teachings remind me that circumstances don’t matter. No matter how many times you think you’ve missed the mark, your decision to embody that which you desire allows your sins of scarlet to be as white as snow. Every nanosecond, you have the ability to experience a completely different reality of your own imaginings. If you say that there is opposition, competition, issues, etc., then that’s what you’ll experience. You are WHOLE, you are PERFECT and you are COMPLETE. You are both the desire itself as well as its fulfillment because You are source consciousness. Creation is finished and all that you desire desires you. Circumstances don’t matter because ALL that ever matters is your BEING-NESS. So, embody the first principle and “Be Still and Know that I AM God” Psalm 46:10 (NIV).
YOU ARE LIMITLESS
“Do you always turn to your imagination and, no matter what happens, do you remain faithful to the state imagined? If you do, you have passed the test. But if every little rumor, doubt, or fear can move you around like a pawn on a chessboard, then you are not keeping the faith! ”
Soul family, YOU are what you’ve been looking for all along. Make a decision today to STOP the searching – because you’re SO powerful, searching begets more searching. Make a decision today to STOP the questioning and imagine yourself having the clarity and the guidance that you desire for your journey. Make a decision today to embody the truth of who you really are and to STOP believing IN God but to believe and to live AS God. I AM Love, I Love YOU and there’s nothing that you can do about it!
About The Author
Marian is a new student to the teachings of Neville Goddard but a life-long seeker of the truth. As a
business executive, wife and mother, her life experiences allow her to relate to vast audiences. She now uses the Law in every aspect of her life and enjoys sharing the knowledge of its transformative power.