A desire is more than just something we want, it is something that is a part of a bigger journey leading us towards the ultimate understanding of fulfillment. I believe that every desire is from God- consciousness- as I believe that every desire serves its purpose perfectly for where we are and where we need to be. The very fact that you are a human reading this article was a desire itself. Your human existence was a desire, it is what you are made of.
Every thing we do is driven by a desire. You desire to wake up, sleep, shower, eat your favorite meal, watch tv, hang out with your friends, etc., and you probably don’t wonder where they came from. So, why is it that some question their other desires? Because it is never about the actual desire or whether it is possible or not, it is always about your understanding of who you are as God. It is about your awareness of how infinite and limitless you are at the time a desire comes upon you, and your recognition of your oneness with everything and everyone. This includes the oneness with the desire itself.
The confusion around whether our desires are from God or the Ego is because both of these terms are misused or misrepresented. God encompasses everything- every state, every possibility and every aspect of awareness. God is aware of everything and everyone, including things we cannot see in our field of vision at this moment. Your Ego is simply your human aspect of this infinite awareness. It is not something to be afraid of, to run away from or to worry about. So long you are playing the part of a human here in this 3D world, you will always be operating from the Ego.
This does not dismiss the fact that your desires are from God, because your Ego is not separate from yourself as God, it is another perspective- another aspect of consciousness. I like to see it as I am operating from both my Ego and my Godself at the same time, while being a human, because I do not feel that they are separate from each other. If they were, we would not be able to manifest anything while being a human, and this would also imply that there is a power outside of us.
Most people are unaware of how the two are connected, and of their True Selves, and this is when over identification with the Ego starts to occur. When we are too identified with our Ego we tend to fall for the illusion that it is the only thing that is real. We fall for the surface of appearances, we judge from only what we see on the outside and what our thoughts are telling us. The bigger picture is lost in the illusion. You can say that a desire from the Ego is a conditioned desire, and conditioning your desires, placing restrictions and limitations on them, happens when you have not accepted who you are as God. It is when you have taken the desire as it came to you in its fulfilled state, and you judge it based on your senses, circumstances, or any other current narratives alive within you. You forget that desiring means you already have it.
You may be questioning whether your desires are from the Ego or God, because you are viewing one as more positive than the other. Therefore, you are separating them. You are also simultaneously seeing your desires as out of reach, and not yours yet- as something to attain, rather than something that is already part of your existence. This is not just a cute way of describing desires, this is meant to be taken literally. You are not a limited being.
When you become aware of how they are both connected, you no longer try to deny the Ego. You stop questioning your desires all together. If your True Self (God) desired to have a Ego to have a human experience, that automatically means that every part of the human experience is valid, including our desires. Your True Self sees beyond the view of the Ego while embracing the contrasts of it. You bring your awareness of the bigger picture into the present moment when your mind starts to question whether what you are doing is right or wrong, since the only one that can judge that decision is You.
“I and my Father are one but my Father is greater than I”. Your conscious (Ego/Son) and subconscious (God/Father) are one, but your subconscious is greater than your conscious.
“The conscious mind reasons inductively from observation, experience and education. It therefore finds it difficult to believe what the five senses and inductive reason deny. The subconscious reasons deductively and is never concerned with the truth or falsity of the premise, but proceeds on the assumption of the correctness of the premise and objectifies results which are consistent with the premise. This distinction must be clearly seen by all who would master the art of praying. No true grasp of the science of prayer can be really obtained until the laws governing the dual nature of consciousness are understood and the importance of the subconscious realized. Prayer—the art of believing what is denied by the senses — deals almost entirely with the subconscious. Through prayer, the subconscious is suggested into acceptance of the wish fulfilled, and, reasoning deductively, logically unfolds it to its legitimate end.”Neville Goddard
You have incarnated as a human to have desires, to see them manifest in the 3D world, to learn from them and experience them to the fullest. If it weren’t so, you would not be here. A desire is a glimpse of what is already fulfilled, since creation is already finished. You would never be given a desire that was not already complete and that the means to manifest them wasn’t already within you. Something cannot be brought into your awareness if it were not a possibility for you. It is not even that the desire is possible, it is that it is already done. Your desires have been available way before your human self was born and it will still continue to exist afterwards, simply because God is eternal and God is who you are.
When questioning whether your desires are from God or the Ego, you are still accepting separation. You are viewing your Godself and your Ego as two separate things. You are viewing your desires as something that is either good or bad, right or wrong. It is true that not everyone has lovely desires and some have them with bad intentions. This is because we can only ever operate based on where we are in our journeys- our state of being and our understanding of who we are. Someone who is completely unaware of who they are and their true nature is more likely to view the world from fear, opposition, separation etc. Those who are closer to recognizing their True Selves are more likely to see the world from love and oneness.
Of course we do not condone desires that harm others, ourselves etc. In fact, that is what these teachings are for, to transcend our state which in turn opens our awareness. We are not meant to eradicate the Ego, we are meant to transcend our relationship with it, and you can only do so by being aware of your True Self. Your True Self does not judge desires or question them, everything is perfect to your True Self.
“Don’t be intimidated by the horrors of the world. All is ordered and correct and must fulfill its destiny in order to attain perfection. Follow this pattern and you will receive from your own ego a deeper insight into the eternal beauties of reality. You will also receive an even deeper release from all that now seems so sad and terrible.”William Blake
Your desires are stepping stones leading you to remembering who you are. Therefore, you are meant to experience them. You are your desire, because you are one with God. I am sure it feels bad to question your desires and judge them. This unlovely feeling is a nudge from your True Self reminding you that what you are feeling and thinking in that moment is simply not the truth. Today, if you find yourself questioning your desires and wondering whether the Law works, thank the unlovely feeling that rises within you for reminding you that what you are currently entertaining is not the Truth. Now, you have started to transcend the Ego.