In the beginning of my journey with the Law, I experienced something I would call a twisted mind. The Law was new to me and so were all of the new beliefs I started to make my own. Reading Neville and listening to his lectures empowered me. I had these moments when everything was clear and bright, and when I felt the truth of everything Neville said. It was almost overwhelming.
All transformation begins with an intense, burning desire to be transformed. The first step in the ‘renewing of the mind’ is desire. You must want to be different before you can begin to change yourself.Neville Goddard – The Power of Awareness
But then I fell off again. I woke up in the morning with a bad feeling, and everything I felt the day before vanished and felt untrue. I thought I was insane for even believing in all of these impossible things.
Now, of course, I understand, that the shift took some time for me, especially coming from a low point. But I remember it was exhausting and I wanted to stop that pendulum. I wanted to be the person I am meant to be.
I see people reaching out to me experiencing the same twisted mind and I told them about a method I invented for myself. This method helped me a lot during that time. It made persisting easier for me and so it might help you as well.
I named it the Blissful Letter, because of the feeling it gave me.
Usually I reached that point of clarity and bliss while reading Neville’s work, listening to his lectures, browsing through success stories or while in meditation. When I got there, I wrote a letter to myself, to the “other” me that couldn’t grasp that feeling yet. To the old me who doubted the positive phase and questioned the new state.
I am the person who knows myself the best, who knows all the thoughts, doubts and feelings of the “old me”. While being in that new state, while being the new me, I wrote the truth of my desires and how real they are. I promised myself that everything is so fine, and that I am loved and secure, no matter what. In my diary, in my note pad and even on my phone, I dedicated notes and messages to my old self.
The old me read these letters, while desperately looking for any kind of evidences, anything soothing, anything lovely, mostly when I couldn’t meditate or couldn’t find peace. They had the right words I needed to hear. Once I found a letter “from the future”, from the point of view after the manifestation and how thankful I was that I never gave up.
To see these words – a physical manifestation of that new state – made it even more real to me. These words came from me, they were real and so was everything that was written. I stopped being harsh with myself for falling back. I understood I was not going insane, my new state was not a maniac episode. I stopped questioning myself and started to trust and build confidence.
When you are new to the Law and Neville’s work, the transformation can feel shattering. Be gentle with yourself, treat yourself kindly. You already decided to transform and to take responsibility. Honor yourself for this huge decision.
It is okay to feel bad sometimes, and no bad day has any power over your manifestations. You did not mess anything up and you don’t have to start all over. Don’t beat yourself up for not reaching the new state constantly, yet. Creation is finished and your desire is still a promise, unconditionally.
If you still experience this twisted mind, if you like, write some lovely words for yourself. It could be a poem. It could be a self-love declaration. It could be a sweet note together with your favorite bag of tea in your pocket – anything from your desired state to your old state, with the medium of your choice. Your old self will be grateful, until you have fully occupied the new state to stay there effortlessly. I promise you, that day will come.
AliciaNovember 16, 2019 at 9:06 PM
Hi Nicole! I’m so interested in this theme. I would love to learn more about your process and teachings!
DebbyNovember 16, 2019 at 9:30 PM
I experience the same thing you are describing and I must admit it drives me mad sometimes.
I woke up in the middle of the night just now, searching for comfort because I keep dropping back to old me, wondering if it even works and why I just seem to stupid to make things happen. I had a desire to start up my ipad and come to this website, and the first thing I read is exactly this.
Michael DingaanNovember 17, 2019 at 3:57 AM
An uplifting piece you have shared here. Thank you
LewisDecember 30, 2019 at 7:40 AM
I really relate to this. I often beat myself up for not being able to hold myself in the state of my wish fulfilled consistently – it certainly comes and goes. Another thing I struggle with is remembering to catch myself in the state where I think from the opposite of having my desires.
I realised a few weeks ago that it is most important, above all, to be kind to myself in all of this. It’s a huge paradigm shift for anyone who attempts it.
melinaApril 7, 2021 at 9:02 AM
wow without knowing I was changing reality, I made two letters with future dates, and almost everything I wrote in them I saw manifested in my life, this is very real.